We are all uncool

Dienstag, März 24, 2015 Studio 56 | studio fifty6 0 Comments

I recently discovered the instagram page of @wearealluncool which is a project with the goal to unite in our differences in order to make social media more genuine & realistic.

I think living in the world we live in today, makes it sometimes hard not comparing yourself or your life to the lives of others. A huge contribution to this are of course the things we see on social media. People, including myself, tend to only post and present the good parts of their lives, happy days, laughters. We might even sometimes feel the need to present a certain facade on social media.
And many times this can lead to a fake or wrong impression.
Even the lives of the people we look up to aren't always full of sunshine and rainbows. We need to remember that the grass is and will always be greener on the other side... unless we manage to fully focus on our goals and blessings in life.

However I wanted to get on board this awesome project of #wearealluncool. It's totally okay to embrace yourself, your flaws and what makes you YOU.
So, here are a few of the things that make me not cool:


1. My whole life I have never been scared of the dark until recently. I don't know why but I got so extremely scared of it and I hate it.

2. I enjoy arguing.

3. I cry over boys while listening to love songs and pretend I'm starring in a movie.

4. I am terrible at giving advice. And I wish I was better at it, everytime someone comes up to me with their problems I am just kind of..there..not knowing what to say.
 
5. I am extremely anxious and shy around people I don't know. 


#IAmNotCool

A letter to my younger self

Sonntag, März 22, 2015 Studio 56 | studio fifty6 0 Comments

So as I was just casually re-reading a bunch of conversations from 4 years ago it literally hit me in the face how much has changed. How much I have changed. The way I talk. What I say. And most importantely: The way I think.
And I thought it was time to share some of my thoughts.


Dear 16 year old me,

If I would tell you where you are right now in life at the age of 20, you probably wouldnt believe a word I'd say.
If I would tell you what you were able to experience during the last 2 years you would believe me even less. Those are things you can certainly look forward to. You you will have the time of your life.

However certain things concerning yourself have come to my attention. Right now you're torn between two guys, I guess. Let me tell you this: they're both not worth your time.
Honestly if you would know how much you'll laugh about this in 4 years time, man...
Anyways I know you're struggling right now so I'd rather give you some advice on how to handle the situation better (As I know you're not willing to turn any of them down at the moment, Oh dear.) 
So here are my words to you:
Don't let these anyone fool you.
You are too nice. 
Stop being so nice. 
If someone treats you like crap then they are not worth your time. 
Feelings will fade. 
The pain will stop and will leave you with nothing but little scars, maybe. 
But also don't waste your time hating anyone.
Focus on the bright sides of life, your life is awesome.

Love, 
Your future self.


Alright. I wonder if in 3 or 4 years time Im gonna look back at my 20 year olf self and feel the same way Im feeling towards my 16 year old self right now.
I hope I won't stop making mistakes in the future because mistakes help me grow.
I hope I won't stop changing because change is good.

Future I'm coming for you.
-Your 20 year old self.

Being a Dreamer

Freitag, März 20, 2015 Studio 56 | studio fifty6 0 Comments

While many people try to destroy the dreamers desires with their negative minds and ungrounded doubts dreamers will stand behind you with their endless hopes cheering you towards your future.
Life will become a colorful mosaic of hidden pathways, unexpected beauties, and spontaneous transitions.

Being in the current 'dreamer state' I'm in, I'm floating around between having the perfect future in mind and not knowing how exactly to get there. Which leads me to my next point:
Dreaming also includes feeling lost at times.
Sadly, people associate being lost as something bad. Confusion is bad. Fear is bad. What if these things arent bad at all? These things are life. And life is a Dream.
"People always focus on how to get somewhere they’re not right now. What’s wrong with the step youre on?"
Live the moment, give a lot and appreciate what you got right now. And most importantly don't forget to dream.
 
“You may say I'm a dreamer, but I'm not the only one. I hope someday you'll join us. And the world will live as one.”- John Lennon

Something Bigger

Donnerstag, März 19, 2015 Studio 56 | studio fifty6 0 Comments

My belief has always given me strength, especially throughout the last couple of years. I know I wouldnt be where I am today, if it wasnt for Him. I know I wouldn't have had the chance to experience the things I did, if it wasnt for God.
Each day is a test of our ability to move beyond the trials and tribulations no matter how hard or difficult they may be. Life challenges us and makes us grow, always with the help of god.
I haven’t always been so passionate about a higher power.
However my spiritual awakening keeps growing each and everyday, and I am so thankful to be able to go through such enlightement. Even though there are days when it's hard for me to keep going, I try to find my focus and I remind myself that everything happens for a reason. Where I am in life right now is excactly whre I am supposed to be.

I know that I am blessed, and that life keeps blessing me every day. Thats also the reason I started trying to be grateful for every little thing like being able to hear the birdies whisteling in the early morning, seeing flowers begin to bloom, having light, having food, not having to wear a scarf to keep me warm for the first time this year, sun, moon, stars, tea, music, the smile this girl gave me the other day,.. this list could go on and on.

However the point is, that my belief has made me grow stronger. Everyone is free to choose what they want to believe in or not. I know that my belief has given me something to lean onto, and I still try to find and seek this guidance each and every day.

"It's always what you think it is." 

- to be continued -